Matters of the heart.. It's time to open up just a little..

Open your heart just a little bit.. and you will be okay..

It’s been a while since my last entry .. Well , I must say that there has been quite much of distraction these few days (world cups and everything) . Huhuhuhu.. I hope that’s a good excuse for me.. :-P

Okay.. today we’re not going to talk about tv series , movies , games or anything else “fun” . Actually I would like to share something about myself . I don’t really much opening myself up , but I think with sharing , I can put away some of the things inside me (keeping things to yourself isn’t healthy , you know..) . Plus , sharing is caring.. ;-)

The first thing that I wanted to share is about friends . They said good friends are precious like stars in the sky . Well , they are right about that , considering it’s highly RARE to find someone genuinely befriended you for the sake of being friendly . Everyone has their hidden agenda be it good or bad .

To be frank , I have a loooooooong list of girl friends , but none of them have made best friends . A few may be , but they never last that long . These few were once close friends of mine but for some reason (God knows why) they turned their back from me . The first one , my intention to resolve the problem between my girlfriend with her boyfriend had me backfired . She thinks I want her boyfriend for myself … (I could care less about her boyfriend ‘cause that time I don’t know anything about love..) . The second , we in same class in high school . And we got in the same college . But…. She left me alone . Just because her new friends think I’m weird (because I don’t gossip about boys and stay quiet reading in my room) , she abandoned me .. Every person at my college thinks I’m a freak ‘cause I don’t like they did.. Instead of standing up for me (for God sake.. she knew what kind of person I am.. we basically friends since high school!) , she did NOTHING . People talk bad about me and she just went “owh? You think so..?” My gosh….

And many more …..

One thing I also learned .. if possible , avoid people who gossiping too much . Someone who phone you not to ask how are you , but rather to ask “any juicy story?” .. I tell you people , when they are gossiping and bad-mouthing about their own friends , what are the odds they will do the same to you ..? Trust me .. I learned that the hard way ..

But again , not all my girl friends are that horrible . There are some are really good souls . Like my childhood friends , and some friends from my school who really are bunch of sweet hearted people . Still … I haven’t had the courage to open up again… may be someday , yes.. J

To be continued …..