Hateful remarks...........

What would you do... if someone who is closer to you.. who born you into the world called you a hateful remark.. "Muka macam setan" .. "Babi"... "Iblis".. just because you express different opinion.... just because you don't like the way they "mengungkit" all things in your life....

Why that hateful remarks??? Doesn't things that been said by a mother will be granted instantly by ALLAH? Kenapa senang sekali menyumpah anak dengan perkataan "Setan".. "Babi".. "Iblis"...?


I don't know... mungkin inilah sebab nya hidup saya sentiasa susah.... selalu disumpah dengan perkataan "jahat".... whoever that read this... please pray for me.... supaya muka saya tak jd mcm setan... tak mcm babi... x mcm iblis..... :-(

W.O.R.D

There's an old saying "stick and stone may break my bones , but words can hurt even more".. (seriously , it's not really an old saying.. I just made it up.. :-P ) And I agreed.. When you harm someone physically , it wounded , scarred and eventually will heal because our body has an amazing "recovery system".. Unlike when you harm someone emotionally.. It wasn't just wounded and scarred.. but it cannot disappeared like the wound you saw on your body.. It's there in your heart.. People with strong heart will get over it a little (not entirely) but there are some people that will carry it for the rest of their life.. And it's awful....

I myself had carried so many wound from my past life and still not fully recover... That made me quite a fragile person and I tend to retreat myself to my "shell" whenever someone hurt me.. When I'm on my "retreat" mode , I will view my life differently.. I feel alone and I need solitude.. I have my share of depression episode when I swallow about 10-12 aspirin just to make everything go away... I hate my life at that time and even considered killing myself... especially when I lost someone I love the most in my life (my abah..) but then , I realized that I am more than what I thought myself be... I want to be different from those people that like to hurt people.. I want to be good... I want not to hurt people with my words coz I know how much it will hurt....

So guys.... think before you say something... Think of what will you feel when that someone hurt you the same way... and if you feel bitter , then stop... Silence and find some solitude... I myself is trying this.. :-)

My "secret" dream job.. :-D

Just saw this ad at a bakery shop nearby.. and to be honest , I was greatly tempted to fill in the post of a "Trainee Baker".. I don't really know what the heck a trainee baker is ,but it's sure sounds fun.. Plus.. I love baking!~♥

These are some of my CREATION.. ☺

This was my first attempt.. Extra brownie point to beloved friend , Tursheena for teaching me how to bake my first cuppies.. ;-)

My second attempt..

This was baked especially for Cookie Monster's birthday.. hahahhahaa.. Weird , I know..

Sold to a friend - Yuzzy..

Birthday present to a friend - Nyna.. Glad she loves them though they are not really that pretty..

My birthday cakes to Moushie on 2009.. :-D

Birthday cuppies for Moushie 2010.. I have lost some of my decoration skill.. huhuhu..

Makeup oh Makeup..

Have you ever come across a picture of a model with flawless feature and gorgeous make-up , and you wondering why you are nothing like her..? Well.. You not alone.. :-) I am too sometimes feel a little insecure of myself looking less than perfect.. I would beat myself up on the idea of why I would never look good in make-up..?

I'm gonna admit that I am at no way an expert when it comes to subject MAKE UP.. The only make-up I put on when I go out would be some moisturizer, press powder, lip gloss and a mascara.. If I have time I would put on some eyeliner or may be a bit and subtle eye shadow.. That's it.. No foundation , loose powder , primer , bronzer , blusher or any fancy-schmancy stuff you heard on the magazine.. The only fancy thing I bought would be a pore smoother I got on sale , which as they claim would matte your face (whatever that means..)

I have few former work colleagues that swear would never gone out of their home without putting on any make-up .. And some even willing to get up as early as 5.30 am just to put on their make-up before going to work (which btw start at 7.30am)..

The make-up result varies from one to another.. Some have a barely there make-up (I am) , moderate one and some even masked their face like a geisha.. (I'm talking EXTREMELY COVERED IN MAKE-UP) .. I'm not against someone who put so much make-up on their face , in fact , if it's what would make they feel confident , I respect that.. It's just that sometimes I feel slightly uncomfortable.. especially when that person is trying to "convert" you to be just like her..

And one more thing that bugs me out is make-up when you get married.. It's a woman DILEMMA whenever she'll get married.. I mean , you have to look different from everyday look , but also you DO NOT wanna look silly on your wedding day.. I have witnessed some of the brides who have quite a disaster make-up on their face and I was wondering "what the hell that they are thinking??" What I meant by disaster is , you look nothing like yourself.. You have like literally putting a mask in your face.. and worst , your husband to be not knowing that it is actually YOU! What's the meaning of a wedding if a groom would not recognize you??

Which has brought me into a conclusion that LESS is MORE.. I have learn from few experiences that whenever I put on much make-up on my face , I would turn out very silly.. (Oh , yes it is very silly) And I stressed this idea to myself until the day I get married.. I will find me a mak andam that willing to make me look beautiful without loosing myself .. means subtle makeup.. Like this --->
and without looking like this --->
See what I meant..? ;-) Okay , it might not be fair for me to compare a celebrity but , you get the idea.. :-D

So , next time you stress out when you have seen people wearing so much makeup and you feel nothing compare to them , well , just remember that beauty is not only by appearances.. You can be beauty through being happy and feeling good about yourself.. Sometimes whatever we see in magazine is not as great as we thought it would.. :-)

You need an ANGER MANAGEMENT when...

If you are like this every time you in a conversation , you really need some anger management, like PRONTO! :-/

Have you ever encounter a bloody high-strung , angry , temper person before? Like when you ask someone nicely , that person responded like you just pick a fight with him/her.. Observe the conversation :

Tey : A.. do you work on Tuesday?
A : Of course! Who the hell not working on Tuesday (in high note) you mother-f*****

or

Tey : Could you move your feet a bit? I can't see it blocking the tv..
A : Hell you are..

Pretty rude right? So what I do when I'm in this situation? Just back-off.. There's nothing I can do to temperamental people.. If you said something back will only add fire to his/her temper and worst , you might get a black eye later.. Not a good respond..

What you guys do when you actually met / deal with temperamental person? Tell me ya? ;-)

BRATTY KIDS NO LIKEY!

Okay , I gotta admit something to clear my chest.. Don't get me wrong.. I adore kids.. But there's something I cannot stand about them is when they are being BRATTY.. I mean , seriously can't stand them..

What do you call a BRATTY kids?

1) When you can't give them what they want , they go crying , screaming , hitting over and over...

2) When they talk back at you.. (in not a good way)

Urghhhh!!!! Can I have a brat-free child in future?

Matters of the heart.. It's time to open up just a little..

Open your heart just a little bit.. and you will be okay..

It’s been a while since my last entry .. Well , I must say that there has been quite much of distraction these few days (world cups and everything) . Huhuhuhu.. I hope that’s a good excuse for me.. :-P

Okay.. today we’re not going to talk about tv series , movies , games or anything else “fun” . Actually I would like to share something about myself . I don’t really much opening myself up , but I think with sharing , I can put away some of the things inside me (keeping things to yourself isn’t healthy , you know..) . Plus , sharing is caring.. ;-)

The first thing that I wanted to share is about friends . They said good friends are precious like stars in the sky . Well , they are right about that , considering it’s highly RARE to find someone genuinely befriended you for the sake of being friendly . Everyone has their hidden agenda be it good or bad .

To be frank , I have a loooooooong list of girl friends , but none of them have made best friends . A few may be , but they never last that long . These few were once close friends of mine but for some reason (God knows why) they turned their back from me . The first one , my intention to resolve the problem between my girlfriend with her boyfriend had me backfired . She thinks I want her boyfriend for myself … (I could care less about her boyfriend ‘cause that time I don’t know anything about love..) . The second , we in same class in high school . And we got in the same college . But…. She left me alone . Just because her new friends think I’m weird (because I don’t gossip about boys and stay quiet reading in my room) , she abandoned me .. Every person at my college thinks I’m a freak ‘cause I don’t like they did.. Instead of standing up for me (for God sake.. she knew what kind of person I am.. we basically friends since high school!) , she did NOTHING . People talk bad about me and she just went “owh? You think so..?” My gosh….

And many more …..

One thing I also learned .. if possible , avoid people who gossiping too much . Someone who phone you not to ask how are you , but rather to ask “any juicy story?” .. I tell you people , when they are gossiping and bad-mouthing about their own friends , what are the odds they will do the same to you ..? Trust me .. I learned that the hard way ..

But again , not all my girl friends are that horrible . There are some are really good souls . Like my childhood friends , and some friends from my school who really are bunch of sweet hearted people . Still … I haven’t had the courage to open up again… may be someday , yes.. J

To be continued …..