DIRECTORS : Are you run out of Ideas already???

 POP QUIZ : What are these pictures have in common..?

I am sicked~ No, not talking about in physical terms but rather emotionally.. I've gotta rant about this new trend in TV series / film about a novel adaptation.. Not that I have any beef with some director/producer who appreciate a good novel and trying to bring it to life, but guys , you gotta chill out.. Honestly I get pretty much annoyed when I turned on a tv and there's every single drama you could find in every channel that were adapted from a certain novel..

That's not all, every dramas/films .. I mean EVERY single one of them kinda share the same storyline.. A couple united in arranged marriage who were at each others' throat then find their romance and then were crushed by a 3rd-wheel and finally reunited again at the end... Seriously?? Like all Malaysian directors are lost for their own ideas and originality already?? It's just soooooooooooooo cliche! We've seen that already! MOVING ON PLEASEEEEE!!!!

A message to directors out there who planning on their next movie / drama on a novel adaptation , please.. PLEASE refrain yourself from using a reference (novel) that has the same storyline , the same plot, the same ending as mentioned above.. We are so over it! (I AM..)

* But I loveeeeeeeeeee Nora Elena.. huhuhuhu..*

Transformers 3 Rant - BRING BACK IRONHIDEEEEEE

Last weekend, my husband and I were watching Transformers 3 : Dark of the Moon.. I didn't get my hope high on this one 'coz I've read so many disappointment over this movie.. However, I'm going to keep all that negative thoughts away for the moment and enjoy the movie.. (I hope)


BUT! They were right to be disappointed..

1. Michael Bay , if you happen to read this , Sam Witwicky or what his name is SO OVERATED! There's nothing wrong with Shia LaBeouf 'coz he's a brilliant actor , but his role in Sam is so overated.. I'm watching Transformers because of the obvious reason = Autobots vs Decepticons and the dramas about Sam and his girlfriend kinda annoys me a LOT! You should tone him a bit and PLEASE bring back Megan Fox..
2. Ironhide's DEAD?????? The hell???????????????????? It's like Jazz all over again! Bring back Ironhideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
3. Who is this Victoria Secret's model?? What's she doing here?? Somebody should revived Ironhide again coz I'm seriously gonna shoot that Barbie Doll myself.. Bring back Megan Fox and screw that Barbie Doll!
4. I WANT MORE AUTOBOTS vs DECEPTICONS and less human drama.. Thank you!

Okay.. so much of the anticipation.. This third installment is a downer.. With no Megan Fox , no more Ironhide , I'm not sure what to expect again in the future... Michael Bay, you're really let me down on this..

Thing I regretted the most.. - A confession

I went on my usual blog lurking through me friend's page - Amli who's apparently always has a brilliant post.. (To be frank, I like him more than blog serious..) When I scrolled down the dashboard containing all Amli's latest posts, I stumbled upon one post entitled "50 people , 1 question" (read here) ,  I felt I had to click on that.. The video went on and I was stunned in front of my laptop with awe..
So there I was still in front of my laptop (even after the video is finished) pondering the same question.. "What is the thing in your life that you regretted the most".. Honestly speaking , there are A LOT of things I've regretted doing in the past.. But I have to say, if Dr. Emmett "Doc" of Back to The Future really is here , I wanted to go back to the times when I was still in the middle of college dilemma back in early 2002 and rushed to my own self and said that JMTI choice was a NO-NO..

I always regard my college days were nothing more than misery and discontentment.. I was misunderstood , isolated and shunned by most of the college populations.. Although it is painful for me to admit it , I was never the popular person in college , instead I was perceived as an awkward and often a victim of ignorant people.. It was hurtful when people ganged up on me because I was different..

I was brought up in school as a proactive student who tends to ask a lot of questions in class and enjoy engaging a conversation with my teachers.. To my surprise people in my college (especially the ladies) saw that as a bad thing , probably seems conceited.. I thought it was okay just to ignore them morons but when my own friend who knows me since highschool not only turned her back against me , she's also joined in the pack, agreeing whatever the morons have to say about me , even if they weren't true..

Getting tangled by so much misery , I got myself involved with unhealthy relationship with 1 guy.. Although my family has stressed out so many times , over and over again that the guy was a bad news I just wouldn't listen to them.. Probably I took comfort of knowing there will be someone who would stick by my through thick or thin , even if it was not entirely genuine .. Whatever it is , I THANK GOD that I was able to get myself out from the relationship without doing myself any harm..

I still carry the painful past of my time in college days till now.. Still not fully recovered.. I try to make peace with my past by staying connected with college friends in facebook (I know it's not a good idea , but I thought it's a perfect way to face the demon of my past..) but then... they still saw me as someone they perceived almost 9 years ago...........

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All I want back then was to be accepted ... :-(

Things that made me go from :-) to >:-(

Current "in-trend" that gets me from *∩_∩* to ---> ⊙ω⊙ the heck???

1. Someone who decide to buy a DSLR camera only to keep up with the trend NOT because he/she's into photography as in passion.. Okay , I know it's your money and all , but to flaunt it off when the only thing you know is to use the auto mode doesn't count you as a photographer , my friend.. And that thing - snapping your own picture while holding on the camera? Doesn't necessarily make you look cool..

2. The "doe" .. I don't know why there's a need in ending absolutely any sentence with a "doe" :

"panas gilee doe!" "henseemmmm doe~!" "Kete awek tu aku tuuuuu.. mahal doe~"

3. The "like" own status/post syndrome in facebook.. Hmm.. like.. seriously..?

4. Endless "see who looks your profile" application invites.. People , the reason I choose facebook more than friendster is that I don't want to be perceived as a "stalker" when I go poking around others profile.. (opsss.. busted..) 

5. The model-wannabe who post her/his pictures gesturing sexual pose (thinking she/he looks sexy) that makes you wonder is she/he doing modeling or looking for "playboy" endorsement..

6. Angry & Hate status.. It's okay to be expressive , but no one in the world would love that negative aura projected by so many "selective" language being used in a single sentence.. And using CAPS LOCK in the whole post? It makes you look like you're screaming the entire sentence like a hysterical sissy.. Chill out! 

7.  Overdosing on "F" word... Use sparingly , people.. I hate to break it , but even the white people doesn't perceived the "F" word as cool.. (hence the censoring in every bad words in tv)

Okay.. that's the end of my rant.. :-D

Cinderella in Reality..

Things has not been fairly good these few days.. I don't know , but it seems that my life has suddenly turned into unexpected soap opera.. Like one you watched on tv nowadays when the protagonist is into neverending misery , one after another.. (Yup , you know what I meant when you watch that crappy sinetron : Intan or that Kejora dan Bintang.. Urgh! *rolled eyes* ) 

I once watch this movie called "Ever After" starring Drew Berrymore and it's the take of "Cinderella" story but with realistic touch to it (no magic pumpkins or Fairy God Mother).. (watch the whole videos : here) I can't help but to feel somewhat connected to the movie since I experienced a comparatively similar state of affairs.. 

I feel betrayed by people surrounding me.. They keeping secrets and do things on their own which regards to my life and never seems to care about my sentiment.. I mean, if you watched Ever After and you saw that scene when the stepmom viciously squandered what's left of Cinderella's father only for the sake of her own and her awkward daughters - that's what my life looks like.. I don't wanna go into details but .... that's what I feel like... 

I miss Abah... I miss the feeling of knowing someone would always be there for me , to protect me against something that would ended up making my life miserable... And now that he's gone I'm completely on my own.. helpless against this squanderers who took comfort in knowing that I'm incapable of doing anything but watch in dejection......

Despaired for my misfortune has gained a friend in my fear for my upcoming wedding.... I hate to think that it will be one disastrous event , rather than a happy and blissful moment.. I know it has a loop hole somewhere for this perpetrator to leave a huge mess in my Big Day... I can't no longer be optimistic after what has happen to me recently...I just...... can't..

My apprehension has threatened to overwhelmed me... but , am trying my very best to keep that "darkness" at bay... I'm keeping my hopes and faiths and I know GOD listen to me ever single day...  Rest assured that this will end , eventually....... I hope...

Miss this song.... used to love it when I was a child..  
(turn off the video widget at the right column)

Rudeness SUCK

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"Makcik, apehal lambat sangat order sy ni? Lapar dh ni oi.."

"Eeeee die ni.. jalan terhegeh2.. cepat la sikit! Bajet catwalk la tu!"

"Ko kira-kira budget ni utk 20 org je, dh tu committe x payah makan ker???"
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Have you ever been in any of these situation? May be  you are that someone who received the rudeness , someone who witness the rudeness or perhaps someone who are the one doing the rudeness.. Either way, discourteous is something one would never practice at any time , any where and NEVER to anyone.. Even if one's need is not being entertained by certain event or person..

Lets observed the above scenarios for a while.. Take the 1st sentence.. What if you are the person who run the cafe/restaurant/stall , you are very occupied with customers that day trying your best to give them the best service you can offer.. (good food , fast service) But then there come a certain someone who decide to give you a challenge of the day by simply mutter on a few choice words just because you failed to entertain her/his need only by mere 5 minutes or so.. Wouldn't you feel like you just wanna march in to the kitchen and "showered" this certain person with a bucket of soapy dish water , and said "go rinse your bad-mouth".. Well, not exactly something a person WOULD do in real life but, i bet no one would ever resist the satisfied feeling of doing so to this RUDE person, right? Hehehehe..

Yup.. Caffeine-less morning IS NOT pleasant.. Therefore, avoid rudeness to the waiter at any cause.. :-D

 So my fellow bloggers , stay away from RUDENESS.. Even when you're in a bad , tough situation, there's no justification for being a foul-mouthed homosapien.. When you feel like you are in the verge of switching into "Bi-yatch" mode , simply put yourself into the other person shoes.. You are not going to like being throwned with harsh , mean words is it not?

Be nice to everyone , regardless your situation.. Life is to be celebrated with goodness and warmness of people in it.. Thus, shoving people , not being patient and harsh talks simply does not qualify..

Suicide is NOT a lauging matter..

I'm not gonna lie , I hate people who are judgemental.. Just because someone made a choice that seems stupid to you, doesn't mean you have the right to say bad things about this person..

Actually , I was talking about a video that I just found in a blog , about a girl who was in the verge of committing suicide.. I'm not going to elaborate more on the video , but you guys can definitely go check it out here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXKmT2ypunU

There were of course, lots of comments from other viewers. Some show some sympathized while others just throw on few choice words to this "unfortunate lady"..For me personally , I can feel her pain.. The person must go through the toughest moment in her life to be actually have that tendency of committing suicide.. And lemme tell you people , it's not for us to judge what kind of a person she is.. So , don't simply throw on a comment like

"Dasar menyusahkan.. apsal kecik2 lagi tak mati??"

"nak terjun pun masih teragak2, apa barang??? kalau ko nak sangat mati, pegi la telan racun"

"kalau aku, x kuasa aku nak bubuh tilam pi selamatkan minah bodoh tu.. baik aku suruh mati je cecepat.. menyusahkan org.. attention whore btol!"

"orang mcm ni kan, kalau dh masuk spital , trpaksa diselamatkan , guess duit sapa yg digunakan?? Our money beb!!"

What happen if the girl is alive and one day stumble upon the video and read through these nasty comments? I'm guessing that it would only make matter worst..Who knows that the girl will later have another suicide attempts just because of our "words"..We are no one but ourselves to blame..

My friends, suicide or depression is not a simple matter , nor it is for us to laugh about.. Some people might not have the strength or power to wield whatever bad things that happen in their live, or they might not having a good supportive environment to help them go through the tough times.. Going through depression , people might not having a clear perspective in lives.. It's like being in a darkest room where you can't even see a thing.. And you try to get out.. I know this because I have experienced it.. I know how is it feel to take your life just to end all this misery.. It's not that we take our life for granted , but depression make us blind.. That feeling of emptiness when you feel so hurt inside , you just gotta have something that would ease the pain.. Some people go to the extreme by cutting themselves just to ease the pain inside..

Okay.. Lemme lay down the facts WHY you should not take suicidal people lightly , or make a joke about them : (source : befrinders.org.my)

MYTHS	FACTS
Persons who talk about suicide, do not commit suicide	Of any 10 persons who will commit, 8 have given definite warnings of their suicidal intentions.
Persons who talk about suicide, do not commit suicide.	Studies reveal that suicidal persons give many clues and warning regarding their suicidal intentions.
Suicidal people are fully intent on dying.	Most suicidal persons are undecided about living or dying, and they “gamble with death”, leaving it to others to save them. Almost no one commits suicide without letting others know how they are feeling.
Once a person is suicidal, they are suicidal forever.	Individuals who wish to kill themselves are suicidal only for a  limited period of time.
Suicide strikes much more often among the rich, or,  conversely, almost exclusively among the poor.	Suicide is neither the rich man’s disease nor the poor man’s curse. Suicide is represented proportionately in all levels of society.
Suicide is inherited or “runs in the family”.	It follows individual patterns.
Improvement following a suicidal crisis means that the suicidal risk is over.	Most suicides occur about 3 months following the beginning of “improvement”, when the individual has the energy to put his morbid thoughts and feelings into effect.
Suicide attempters are just looking for attention.	Most people considering suicide are sincerely reaching out for help. Their cries should not be taken lightly.
Talking about suicide encourages people to do it..	When listened to with care, suicidal people get a chance to express themselves and may find relief.
All suicidal individuals are mentally ill, and suicide is always the act of a psychotic person.	Studies of hundreds of genuine suicide notes indicate that although suicidal people are extremely  unhappy, they are not necessarily mentally ill.

And the DOs and DONT's when you're with someone who is suicidal.. 

DO’s

Approach your friend and let him/ her know you have noticed.

Ask about his/ her well-being.

Listen to his/ her problems and feelings.

Be accepting, do not judge.

Be patient and gentle.

Show that you care.

Ask openly and directly if he/ she is thinking of harming himself/ herself.

Take threats seriously.

Get help.

DON’Ts

Don’t offer empty words or reassurance.

Don’t give up on your friends – maintain contact with the person at risk.

Never assume that talk of suicide is simply a manipulation for attention.

Don’t think that having previously failed an attempted suicide will prevent someone from another attempt.

Don’t minimize your friend’s pain

So friends, be a good friend to someone who in need of our care no matter how whinny and difficult the person may seems.. Don't be a bitch , coz honestly it isn't cool at all.. If you can't offer any help, give them words of comfort.. It might at least soothe their feeling.. Or if you are no good in words, just lend them your ears  by listening to their problems.. It can also help lightened their burden.. Just remember this old saying : Treat someone the way you wanted people to treat you..

And for those that are depressed and thinking of taking your life.. Take a deep breath.. and seek help, okay? Reach for someone.. Don't keep things for yourself.. If no one out there is care for you, know that there is one.. ALLAH do.. and I do.. Keep on prays and ALLAH will listen to you.. 

Also.. you could go to this link .. They are all professional and willing to help/listen to your problem.. and no worries.. at no charge at all.. :-) 

http://www.befrienders.org.my/contact.html

Remember.. you are not alone..

Where's my OLD SHANE DAWSON???????

Is it just me , or did I find Shane Dawson is not that funny anymore? :-( Nowadays his videos lack of UMPH.. I'm tired of Paris Hilton nasal voice and I miss Shananay so much.. I wonder what the heck happen to her? Probably she was arrested because she killed to many people, I don't know.. But I surely miss Shananay dearly... :-( 

I can't laugh at Shane's videos anymore.. His jokes becoming increasingly lame... I beg your pardon to all the fans out there that happen to read this blog , but you gotta agree with me.. I don't hate Shane , it's just that I can't seems to like his video no more.. I don't know , may be he decided to become more professional now that he's a youtube star , but it doesn't mean he have to sacrifice his charm and whatever things that made people love him in the first place.. 

My first encounter with Shane was his "Lady Gaga tried to kill me" video.. I thought it was brilliant and I can't stop laughing at that.. (and yeah, I rapped the play button :-P ) I become an immediate subscriber and waiting for Shane's new videos are like waiting for a date from certain special someone (if you know what I mean.. ;-)) I adore him for being true to himself , encouraging his viewers to accept themselves as who they are and for all the jokes that keep my day brighter.. His words do comfort me especially on the "Father-less day".. coz I also lost a person who I consider like my own father.... 

Now......? He just lost it...... :-( 

Shane , if you happen to stumble upon this blog entry , please , please bring back the old you... I miss that.. very much... 

Bitchiness Annoyance

Ever watch this kind of status on your friends feeds on facebook/twitter? :

"Urghhh.. you always showed off to everybody what you've got.. why don't you just owned the world and everything else in it then??"

(20 like this with 30 comments)

"Skank alert!! as if you were the hottest gal in here.. go die bitch!"

(5 like this with 2o comments)

"NEW GOSSIP IN TOWNNNNN.. PM ME FOR DETAILLLL"

Ye-aaaaa.. I would definitely do that.. But again, I might get arrested for doing so.. :-D

*sigh* First Entry of 2011....

This is my first entry of 2011.. I wish that my first entry is more decent.. but... I don't know about that now.. I have promised myself to be less grumpy in my last entry and yet again , the situation right now make me feel like I could use a little bit rant..

I have this reputation of being overly jealous.. Well , fortunately for me that I keep that to myself.. But , the thing is , when you keep things inside , you tend to make you crawled back to your shell and isolate yourself from the world.. Well , at least that's what I am...

I have tried my best not to get the jealousy ruin me, but I'm not that strong... especially when the "subject" was affiliated to the group that I don't click at all... why is that my significant other would not understand this?... I have explain it over and over again , but still at the end I will come out to be the bad guy on the issue.... whereas I was merely trying to defend my emotions... coz I don't wanna get hurt , again...

*sigh* .... what a way to spend my first day of 2011........

Those Parasite Opportunist

It is good to be opportunist.. It differentiate you from other people.. Alas, there also some negative aspect of opportunist , especially when you take advantage of other people , and they suffer in the circumstances..

I am in the situation where I was ordered by our HSE manager (who shall I say "conned" me into agreeing) to give his daughter and apparently also his nephew a lift.. It's not much of a bother really , until they ordered me around like a driver... Imagine that someone share a car with you , using your car , but treating you like dirt.. You are the one who owned the car , and you drive the car using your own expenses to buy the fuel , and then when your car tank reaches "E", they act like nothing happen.. The best part of all , one of them apply a RM60 fuel claim when he actually share a car with you with your car, your fuel and you who the one driving it.. (Yes , he DID NOT share that RM60 with me.. that slimy bastard..)

So , today I decided to give them both an SMS telling them that I will no longer their backing call.. Hah!

The DOW..

"Oiiiiiiiiiii!! Jgn aaa sentuh kete aku.. Mahal DOW!!"

"Ko tengok awek tu.. Perghhhhh!! Lawa DOW!!"

"Aku excident hari tu doctor jahit x pakai bius DOW.."

"Giler mahal DOW baju tu!!"


Urgh!! Is it just me or has anyone else annoyed with this DOW expression people nowadays seems bother to add in their every conversation? I don't know what's the meaning of the word nor I know the origin of it.. May be it was spoken by people from a planet Zarbus , I don't know but it ANNOYS the hell of me..

**Perhaps it was origin from the word "BODOH?" like when you wanna said "Sakit la BODOH" but don't wanna sound disrespectful to your friends , and changed it to "Sakit la DOH!" Which then revolutionized to DOW.. Yeah , there's one more "contagious" thing happening in our society when people tend to add too much DABELYU (W) in their words (especially in facebook)
i.e : Amek sik TAWUK kenak PEWUT amek cakit ilak EWH..**

Urghhhhhhhh.....

Wedding Dilemma..

I am sick of wedding trend nowadays.. It's like "A MUST" to have a lavish wedding even if you couldn't afford it.. People make such a fuss when you wanna have a small and simple wedding.. I don't know who start this crappy trend but it REALLY has to end..

I gotta tell you , wedding nowadays is kinda overrated.. You HAFTA have a super-duper wedding to be recognized in the society.. You HAFTA have that super-duper high-end designer wedding apparel , super-duper HD edited wedding video , super-duper fancy-smancy guest gifts , super-duper expensive and branded "hantaran" etc..etc... (If you guys don't know what "hantaran is , it means money which was given by the groom to the bride-to-be to cover all the wedding cost especially on the catering.. Usually the amount was decided during "merisik"..) I mean what the hell..? Isn't it just enough to have a simple yet memorable wedding? It's the thought that counts.. Not how much you spend... And there's one thing I can't stand about our society is when they comparing your "hantaran" with the others .. Observe the conversation :

Makcik A : Wowwwwwwwwww... Mia's so lucky to have a stable husband.. Her RM33,333.33 hantaran is just grand..
Makcik B : Yeah.. my daughter got RM18,619.84.. In honor for her birthday..
Makcik A : Good for you.. The amount is just enough.. Nowadays , with the things so expansive , you just gotta have no less than RM15K.. I mean , it's your BIG DAY .. You have to spend a little to celebrate the once in your life time event , right?
Makcik B : I couldn't agree more.. Hey.. Tey , (turn to me) you just got engaged right? How much is your hantaran?
Me : Ummm.. RM10K..
Makcik A & Makcik B : Owhhh....... (end the conversation and started whispering to each other)

Have you ever encounter some crappy situation like that? It's like you just being "branded" according to your "hantaran" value.. HELLOOoooooooooooo.. You're not in the decades where people are differentiate by status anymore.. We're not living in the past like P-Ramlee's Antara Dua Darjat or Kassim Selamat..

This perception of "a grand wedding is a MUST" must end.. Even in Islam , our Rasul never encourage his people to have a big wedding.. Just work on what you already have.. It's the Ijab that matters.. The moment when you are pronounced as husband and wife.. Not the ceremony.. *sigh* sorry.. I just really agitated with some people who bickering about this "you must have a grand wedding" thing...

Okay.. enough of me babbling..

Get away you vampires!!

It's true what people said "GOD make things for a reason... No matter how bad it seems in your life.." And it happens in my life as well..

At first , I was a bit bitter with the fact that I was not going to be working in MLNG no more... I felt depressed knowing that everybody will saw me like a sore loser for losing a job at such a big company , and to be honest , I constantly beating myself up because of it..

And now I know why...

I am sure everybody has at least 1 person that intoxicated your entire life with their moaning , their whining and not to mention whatever gossips the person pouring at you that would ended up make you feel bad for yourself.. I personally admit that most of the girls I met at MLNG would not worth missing for.. I have spend my 2 and a half years in MLNG with what I called a pack of VAMPIRES... They suck your positiveness DRY and worst , you become one like them..

What exactly are those VAMPIRES? :

1) A FRIEND that will and always be a whiner.. No matter how positive your day is , she would never fails to make it gloom.. Like if you just get promoted , instead of congratulate you , she said something like this : "The company is SO unfair.. I worked here 6 months before you.. Guess I'm not good in presenting myself as you are.. (sad face)".. Or , if you just got hitched by a great guy : "Hmmmmm.. there goes another one... *sigh* " I swear , if I wouldn't have thought of respecting her as a friend I would've just strangle her and shout "WOULD YOU JUST QUIT IT??"

2) A FRIEND that being all sugary spice and everything nice infront of you , but when you turn your back , she gonna stab you with a rambo knife and spill your guts out.. I've seen this kind of friends for million of time.. And to be honest , most of the female friends I met there are having this "disease" ..

3) A FRIEND who gossips a little bit too much.. This is the one you would NEVER entrusted a secret with.. She gossips just about everything and everyone.. Her way of saying "hello" to you would be "Hey girl, got any juicy story?" The worse part is , it's okay for her to gossip about everybody.. But when other people gossiping about her? Huh.. She would go nukes as if the person just burned down her house , or do something crazy to her.. Also , if I wouldn't know , I would step away from her a long time ago.. I gotta admit I , myself also diagnosed by this gossiping disease and ALHAMDULILLAH I'm free as soon as I walk out from that company.. O , yes.. It is contagious and you just can't stop! The best way to get cured , is remove yourself from this kind of friend..

A few days back , I hangout with whom I suspected to be these vampires... From the 1st minute I sat down until we said fairwell to each other , they just go bashing and gossiping.. and I myself without realizing it , doing so.. When I was in my car alone , I just felt guilty... My conscious suddenly felt like a town which just got hit by a big tornado.. So.. I decided from that moment , I will keep myself away from them ... The next time I see these vampires , I would bring some garlic and a sharp spike and shout "GET BACK!"