External Hard Disk - DAIKIRAIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh , the feeling's mutual , mate..

Honestly how many times in your life you'd feel so frustrated with your gadget? Well , for these few weeks , I'm beginning to feel extremely agitated with my not-so-new-5-month-old External HD.. 1st of all , almost all of my .avi files are corrupted with this infuriating crc error.. I gotta say if I hadn't been thinking straight , I would just smash this HD into pieces (although it cause me RM250 to buy that darn HD)..

Second , I have spend about 24hrs through checkdisk and to add more to my irritation , the window-replace-bad-clusters takes 2 days to finish! I repeated .. 2 DAYS! And it gets even better.. None of the files seems to be working properly which just a waste of my time.. Oh , and my newly download gaki no tsukai batsu game is corrupted as well!! Urgh! whatever I do to deserve this...

Oh , from now on , am gonna used a bigger front... :-P

I love ME!

There are times when we criticized ourselves too hard.. I myself have a problem with self acceptance and I'm my own worst critic.. EVER.. I sometimes find that it's hard to feel good about myself .. It's not that I'm pessimistic (although I know I am .. a bit..) but looking myself lacking certain values from other people can look pretty much discouraging.. It's a struggle especially when it comes to presenting myself to other people..

Like one time.. I was approached by this gorgeous guy while I'm still working at MLNG.. I know that I like him so much and I really hope that one day I will have a date with him.. But then when I finally have 1 , I can't feel good as I constantly beating myself up with "what would I do to look perfect to him.. I can't afford myself to look like a fool infront of him..??" Therefore I began to switch myself to otherwise a different girl.. which btw turns out to be blah.. I can't even hold on to a conversation let a lone enjoying my dinner 'coz of my I-want-to-look-perfect composure.. In the end , I ended up screwing my date.. Am sure he doesn't really enjoy going out with me , coz that's the last time we go on a dinner together.. and that's a lost cause...

So .. after that disaster , I began to just let myself think : There's something I cannot change about myself.. Like if I were someone who love to laugh out loud , then just laugh the hell out.. Don't do that control ayu thingy.. And alhamdulillah.. to my surprised , I progressed.. Though there is a time I begin to beat myself up again.. :-P

There you go.. Acceptance DO allows changes.. Accept yourself for who you are and try not to judge yourself too hard.. Love yourself a lot.. ;-)

**SLUG MODE ACTIVATED**

It's clearly one of my biggest flaw now.. I get easily frustrated nowadays and whenever I felt like it , i just want to sleep it off .. The result..? I was constantly on my bed for most of the time during the day.. and worst , after that sluggishness I still feel sleepy...

Hmmmmmm.. I wonder if somehow I was hypnotized by a sandman..?

Oh? I never thought I can do these things!!!

1 thing I notice about myself is I can learn something pretty much quickly than I anticipated .. I didn't mean to sound cocky but , that's what I discover recently ..

1.) At first I thought that I was terrible at dancing , knowing that I never dance before.. You could say that I have 2 left feet and a bit "kaki bangku" (hmmmm.. it reminds me of my English teacher back at high school.. she used to call someone kaki bangku whenever the student failed in the test.. hahhahaa..) But just after 2-3 days of training I beginning to catch up and it surprised my fellow dancers as well (and me as well) ..

2) Everyone who knows me very well would said that I'm not really your "Miss Martha Stewart".. 'Coz a) I love to cook but in some way fails miserably .. hahahhahaa (but sometimes the dish turns out to be delicious if I put much effort in it..) b) I'm not always a "girl" version at home even if I tried to.. But , one day , I bought this DIY thingy at a knick knack store.. I was extremely bored that time so , why don't try this at home .. It was quite a struggle at first knowing that I NEVER saw something before.. But then , after some times I manage to finish it! (it's a handphone case) .. And to my surprise I began to get addicted by this sawing thing.. So , I went to the store to buy some more DIY thingy.. Unfortunately , SOLD OUT.. *sob..sob..* so much for my goal for new "passion".. However , it didn't stop my addiction , so I went to stationery store and bought the same materials used in previous DIY thingy.. I don't know what the hell am gonna do with these things.. LOL! I looked around my room for some "inspiration" and I saw my shopping bag.. I turn it inside out and began to study the sawing and "AHA!" .. So.. this is the final result after 2 days of hardworking :

Owh , and this one a week later out of boredom , I finished this one in 1 day :

Aren't they the cutest things? :-D


3) I never played ping pong before.. My fiance insists on pingpong-ing since we kinda short on sport gears i.e tennis balls (I'm quite good at tennis but hafta work on my backhand) and badminton racket (only have 1.. :-D ) It was quite hard in getting used to since I'm more on tennis and I hit the ball quite hard (and believe me someone's hurt because of it.. :-D ) But then , I managed to put some control into my hitting skill .. (is it hitting?.. okay whatever..) And Yayyyy!!! I think I'm good now and able to be a good challenge to my fiance.. Hohohohoho.. But again , he always "bullying" me with screw ball and smashed ball .. *sob..sob..*

4) Recently we (my fiance and me) switched our sport activity to SWIMMING .. I've not been swimming for ages.. My last swimming lesson was back in primary school which to be precise 15 years ago??? So , yeah , I screw this one.. You people would love to watch how I drown myself trying to swim , eh? Hah! Not gonna happen! (well , at least not when my fiance's around.. :-D ) On my 2nd day of swimming , I managed to swim a few meters without someone to hold on to me.. Yayyy! I should've been proud of myself..

It's amazing how a human brain works.. When you said "I CAN DO THIS" , you will be amazed on how you would be able to do whatever it is to do.. So , boys and girls , whatever it is that you WANT to do , NEVER doubt yourself.. Just remember you are capable in anything if you said you can! *oh no.. I beginning to sound like "The Secret" video... :-D *

Sarawak Got Talent

Off from Amli's post at FB.. hahahhaahaa.. I don't know why but this song's been stuck in my head.. Sounds kinda catchy.. ~Kiss ktk thru the phone.. O-yeah!

Shane - U R AWESOME!!

Okay , I've been stayed up all night (uuuuuuuuuu.. I know it's bad.. but , yeah , CBF!!) watching this youtube channel : ShaneDawsonTV.. I was scrolling thru the videos and I saw this "Lady Gaga Tried To Kill Me" , I clicked , and immediately I'm in loooooooooveeee.. I mean this guy's awesome.. Love his Snananay and the "Mom" characters.. very original.. Ohhh! and the 'Faggot'! hehehhee...

So guys , why don't you check it out and subscribe him.... ;-)

To watch his video click- here

Speaking Straight

It's a tough day for me today.. I'm at the lowest point of my life.. Probably 'coz am being seen as a sore loser at home.. :-( It's bad enuff that I'm unemployed right now and being ridiculed by you people , but still you never fail to abuse me mentally..?? You only see things through your own eyes , but what about mine? It's my life you are tearing apart.. not yours..

It's the 2nd time already that you sold my soul to hell! What else do you want? You already ruin my life , still you burn the only bridge I have in this world.. Just because I'm small , doesn't mean you BIG enuff to do anything you please i.e : ruining your own family's life!

And on top of that you play victim now??? urrrgggghhhhh...

I can do it!!!

Okay.. Since I'm in a chatty mood tonight.. I'm gonna write 1 more entry again.. Well.. tomorrow I have to face my fear of confronting people.... Yea.. as shocking as it sounds , I am pretty much flaky when it comes to presenting myself to other people.. I get shaky when I'm on interview.. My palm's sweaty whenever I have to convince someone to listen to me ..

Actually , tomorrow I have to go out to look for a job.. It's been 2 months since I've been unemployed and to be frank , it's depressing .. You would not want to be look like a loser .. right?

So.. yeah.. tomorrow.. I'm gonna challenge myself , go out there , storm in every company doors and said "Do you have a vacancy?"

*wish me luck people...*

Notre Histoire D'amour

I was reading my relative's blog (which is awesome and very cute , you could read it here) ,then I was sorta inspired by one of her entry about "Our Love Story" .. So , I thought , hey , why not share one right here .. hohohohoho.. *boy.. am I gonna be embarrass by this...*

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It happens when I was still in MLNG (that's Malaysia Liquefied Natural Gas in case you didn't know.. :-P) .. We kinda hangout in the same group but never really talk much .. I must say that I am thankful for Treasure Hunts program , 'coz we started being close since then .. We exchange phone number and emails.. I gotta admit though that at first I don't really feel anything towards him in any way other than F.R.I.E.D.S .. I don't know.. I'm sorta had it with the male species that time so , I'm not really that excited.. hahahhahaa.. :-P After some YMs , he kinda grew in me though... He's not bad.. very chatty and kinda sweet considering that he's been flirting throughout the YM.. :-D ) One time , he's like "you know , I started working in MLNG just a few days after my birthday".. and I'm like "Oh , really?? when exactly is that? I should get you a present!" Well , of course , I was kidding at that time.. He then said "You would??? ... there's no girl ever bought me a present before" Yeah , riiiiteeeeeee... But actually I feel bad for him , so for a good gesture I planned to give him a "surprise belated birthday dinner"..

The day after that , I bought a birthday cake and planned with my friend Suhaila for a makan-makan at Seribu Bintang.. You can watch the video below.. ( taken by a friend , Daniel..)



To my surprise.. later that night , he called me.. (1st gayut time.. hahhahaa) It was already like 12 in the midnight!

Moushie : Tey.. thanks aa ko berik aku besday cake ya.. then belanja aku gik..
Me : Owh.. No problem ya.. hahahhahaa.. (I laugh here because I'm nervous.. I get nervous when a guy calls me on the phone)
Moushie : Seriously aku terharu ehhh.. X pernah gik ada mpuan berik aku hadiah..
Me : Ishhhh.. bulak ehhh.. Ampey juak.. x da la ex ko merik ko papa b4 tok?
Moushie : X da..
Me : O la tedah nya.. hahahhahaa.. kira aku first girl la tok.. eeee.. best ehhh.. (again , I was kidding at that time..)
Moushie : Tok la molah hati aku tambah sayang tok..
Me : ......(blushing) hahahahhahahahha.. (laughing nervously) menar la tadek? aku pun sayang ko jwak.. hahahhahaa..
....................................... and the conversation going on for about an hour..


After that time , we grew closer together.. well , not officially as a couple yet though there were lots of flirting going on between us .. Honestly I feel good about it.. So... 1 night... on 17th of December 2008 , while we were YM-ing :

Moushie : Hmmmmm.. Tey.. mun kata ada org suka ko la kan.. and nya confess dpn ko.. apa reaction ko?
Me : (was choking at that time..) Aku berterima kasih la ngan nya coz sudi suka ngan org yg byk kekurangan mcm aku tok..
Moushie : Mun nya serious suka ngan ko and mok melamar ko jadi gerek nya..?
Me : Uishhhh.. berat ya.. hahahhaha (again , laughing as a nervous gets to me..) hmmm.. aku mok kenal la ngan nya dolok.. Mok tauk hati budi nya mcm ney..
Moushie : Ko suka org laki nok mcm ney..?
Me : Hmmmmm.. aku suka nok jujur , pandey polah aku tetak , memahami , penyayang... alaaaa.. mcm ko bah.. hahahhahahaa.. (no intention there.. I was kinda " main-main jak")
Moushie : Mun menar aku suka ko...?
Me : ...........(I took time to reply this) Well , padah jak la terus-terang.. klak knak kebas org.. susah ko.. hahahahahaa
Moushie : ................... (also took time to reply) Tey.. aku suka ko tok... mok ko jadi gerek aku..


I don't remember anything after that except I was officially someone's girlfriend.. And the day after that was the 1st time we go out together (or.. dating if you like) AGAIN , to my surprise , he's such a gentle , very romantic kinda person.. I wasn't exaggerating but it's true.. Imagine a guy open the car door for you.. hold your hand ... on your 1st date.. ? Some people might find it a bit of a rush but I didn't see it through him.. He's like different from the other guys that I used to date .. I can see the sincerity.. and thank ALLAH for that , he remain the same , up till now.. :-)

So.. there you go.. the moment of our love story.. There are still a lot more things though but , nahhh.. I'm too lazy to type in the details.. :-D

However , I am truly grateful to ALLAH that HE brings Sukre into my life... My life was in total despair after I lost my beloved Abah in the early 2008... But , Alhamdulillah... someone here now to pick up the pieces... :-)

And 4 days after our 1st anniversary , we were officially engaged on 21st December 2009... :-) (still waiting for our BIG day... small step , people.. No rushing this time.. )

My Engagement Day (21st December 2009)

Hail to Herinteractive!! 23rd Installment Review

First and foremost , allow me to congratulate all the Herinteractive team involves in the making of the Nancy Drew's 23rd installment : Shadows at the Water's Edge.. FINALLY! Nancy Drew game has returned to it's exciting form.. I have long to play one since Curse of Blackmoor Manor.. Not that the other after that are bad (some are decent enough , I personally love Ransom of the seven ships and Legend of Crystal Skull) , but for some reason the games after Curse of Blackmoor Manor lack a certain umph .. Be it the lack of suspense , thriller factor , lengthy game plot , characters ,etc.. But no matter , Shadows at the Water's Edge should bring the glory back.. So , Yayyy to the ever so awesome Herinteractive team!!


Okay.. enuff of me babbling .. My first reaction to the game when I saw the trailer I was in immediate awe and couldn't content my excitement to play this game and when I finally be able to finish one , man , I feel like my life is complete.. Okay , that's a bit over the top connotation but seriously I am blown away by it .. So , here are some of the good and bad of the game :


PRO :

1) Suspense / Thriller Factor

Oooo yeah.. It is happening .. You are going to encounter one of these gruesome entity when you LEAST expected it.. When it did , I was like stopped breathing for a few second in horrified .. What was that???? And the soundtracks are also proved to add some spookiness quality in the game .. You will also occasionally being haunted by some eerie sounds around the ryokan ..

2) Lengthy Game
Unlike the previous games (after Curse of Blackmoor Manor) , I believe this one is quite lengthy and there are lots of thing to do .. The story flows brilliantly .. Though you might get stuck (not knowing what to do next , you can always go back and forth of the ryokan or convention centre and somewhere along there , you will advance ..

3) Puzzles / Mini Game
There are enuff puzzles and mini games to keep you occupied (if you want a star at the end of the game) .. I must say that I was okay with the puzzles though some of them have make me tapping my brains out to get it through .. But that's okay.. I love the challenge .. (LIAR! :-D )


CONS :

1) Puzzles
It griefs me to say this .. Alas , I found some of the puzzles are quite hard .. I have to google for some spoiler to get it finished ..

2) Where's the ghost hunter????
I thought I would meet the ghost hunter in this one considering the status of the surrounding.. I haven't meet one (except for the one who retires and we talk only on the phone) which btw is ridiculous..

3) Not enuff apparition
Sure , the atmosphere is spooky and you might encounter one or two shadowy figures but I WANT AN APPARITION!!! Like one in the trailer.. ?? There are not enuff apparition to keep me scare..


So , there's basically my review of pros and cons of the game .. Am I loving it? O-YES! Hate it? No.. except for the frame puzzle though.. I am so wish that Nancy would just tear the frame in spite of frustration.. hahahhaha! So , if you guys want to get scared , feel free to download the game here
Install them and have a good scare time!!

I would like to thank you for NOVITACHU for making it happen.. Huhuhuhu.. I truly am grateful that you post the game .. XOXO to you.. ;-)