Feverish and Craving for Hot Cakes..

Germs..go away please.. 

I'm still on leave today due to fever.. I just got it yesterday.. I don't know who brought this nasty germs.. Now I have to stay at home wrapped in blanket and a "cool fever" pad on my forehead.. *sigh* 

On the other hand.. I have the opportunity to have a good rest after a long 6-days a week-job.. I'm not complaining or anything.. But someone under my condition should not be long exposed with a room full of sweaty people.. Not to mention those who missed their shower and rushed to morning shift? Brrrrrrrr....

Now I'm beginning to miss gaming so much.. I missed spending the entire day in my room, having a blast with the latest Nancy Drew or Black Mirror or anything else that tickle the fancy.. I have tried to spend at least 2-3 hours , 2-3 times a week for this particular thing that I love so much.. But.. I was stopped by my constant-nausea episode which make concentrating / focusing in something is rather difficult.. (even when I'm working).. The only game that I can play while holding to my nausea is Solitaire.. 

And also, to make up for the 2-3 hours , 2-3 times a week that my husband and myself have agreed on (for a Me-Time) I returned to my downloading activities.. Mostly on Leverage Season 4 episodes.. and some old movies like Johnny English and also subbed Gaki no Tsukai.. 

I have to say the season 4 of Leverage is great.. I love how Parker and Hardison begin to develop their feelings to one another and Nate and Sophie.. although they both are trying to keep it low (in last season they both have a fling after defeating Monro.. Hohohoo.) but somehow in episode 8, the other members know since Nate and Sophie were cold-read by the mark who happen to be the great grifter.. :-D Still in progress in downloading episode 9.. With a slow connection line that runs 15kb per sec, I don't know when will I be able to finish the whole season.. Well, actually the only available episodes are up till 10.. I believe the US haven't reach the finale yet..

I'm so craving for something sweet now.. I just have a salad for lunch.. I'm not trying to be  modest for having a small meal or gone diet or anything , but that's the only thing I can eat for the moment.. I have tried eating a small bar of cadbury but seems not satisfying my crave.. I'm having a huuugeee crave for hot cakes with syrup at the moment.. I know , you probably gonna say "go and cook one" but honey.. let me tell you, while I'm pregnant, I can't eat anything that I cooked.. I don't why but it happens that way.. I wonder if there's a restaurant or coffee shop that sells hotcakes in the morning... (Oh, don't EVER mentioned Mc Donald to me coz we don't have one in Bintulu..) 

How I miss this.... :-(

No.. I'm not dead yet..

It's been a while since my last entry.. Believe me when I say that it's a weird feeling to finally have the "force" to open this page and start typing.. Feels like a forever! 

Okay, not so much updates on my side , except that now that my life has developed into new chapter , as a married person.. It kinda sound cliche , but Marriage does changed me alot.. Especially the way I view life.. and the way I live.. of course.. The other reason that I didn't updated my blog in regular basis was due my busy schedule with SMDS Plant Shutdown commencing on 12th last month.. I had a long day at work and I couldn't seems to have the strength nor interest to write something.. Huhuhuhu.. 

But, today since I'm on my leave, I was bored and got nothing to do so I thought , hey, it's been a while since I updated my blog.. (yeah, like someone's gonna read this crappy blog , rite?) So, here I go, opening my dusty laptop and get on with it (mmm.. it's lie.. actually my laptop aren't that dusty.. :-P ) 

So.. what else I wanted to talk about.. Oh, oh.. now that Peter Jackson is currently filming "The Hobbit" which is totally AWESOME and I can't wait to watch it next year , or probably next 2 years from now.. I'm really-reaaaaaaallly excited about the movie since my last parting with The Lord of The Rings and I feel so empty afterward waiting for another masterpiece to come out.. Well, since there are a lot of crappy Lord-of-The-Ring wannabes out there that don't sell it so I feel agitated thinking "That's it.. We're not gonna experience something like The Lord of The Rings anymore".. until... my friend Amli has posted in his blog stating that Peter Jackson gonna make "The Hobbit" and boy, I was like WHAT????????? I instantly googled it up and BAM! "The Hobbit" is already in the making.. and what's even more cool, Ian Mckellen gonna play GANDALF AGAIN!!! yayyyyy!!! Hail to Gandalf The Grey!"

You know what, I even secretly wished to resign my current work and go to New Zealand and work with "The Hobbit" crews.. I don't care what kind of work it would be.. Heck, I even willing to be the coffee lady.. Hihihihihi.. But, nah.. All that wishful thinking is just a wishful thinking.. First, I don't have that kind of money to travel to New Zealand.. Second, I'm married , so I bind to the title.. and Third, I'm 2 months pregnant now.. Don't think the crews wanted to hire a prego woman working with them.. Huhuhu..

Apologize if the picture is in bad quality.. I'm using my hp camera.. This was taken when I'm in 7 weeks of pregnancy.. The fetus still look like a "blob" rather than human.. 

If you're wondering if I experience those infamous "nausea-vomiting" episodes and I'm not gonna disappoint you because  YES I'm on it BIG TIME.. People who knew me know that I'm an avid eater.. I munch alot.. and during this first trimester, I can't even touch any food.. Except for that ol' biskut jaakob.. Huhuhuhu.. My husband even take me to fancy restaurant just to make me eat something but Noooooooo.. I even stopped at 3rd bite of my steak.. The only placebo effect that works for me is ice-cold water.. I know people said it is bad for pregnant women, but can't help it.. That's the only "weapon" I have to fight nausea.. 

Oh, yes, I can smell everything as well.. I remember last night during my grocery shopping with my husband.. I was paying for my things and this lady came next to me for her turn.. I don't know what she did but GOSH.. she smell foul!!! I can't even bear standing next to her so I gave the money to my husband and rushed out.. With my nose covered.. I was in the whirl of nausea last night and the next thing I know I was at my kitchen sink...... (you know what it means..) 

So that's the end of my updates.. Will try to update regularly , although I know it's a challenge.. For me being a lame blogger.. 

Until next time fellas... 

BATSU GAME : 10HOURS OF .. (INSERT YOUR CHOICE HERE)

*Nyan-Nyan-nyan-nyan-nyan-nyan-nyan-nyannn-nyannnnnnnnnnnn nyannnnnn ................Zzzzzzzzz*

Oh- damn I need start over!

If you were such a hot shot and you ACTUALLY finished watching this for 10hours try Rebacca Black Friday 10 Hours.. Oh, you might need to pop couple of paracetamol for each passing minutes for this version.. :-D

Transformers 3 Rant - BRING BACK IRONHIDEEEEEE

Last weekend, my husband and I were watching Transformers 3 : Dark of the Moon.. I didn't get my hope high on this one 'coz I've read so many disappointment over this movie.. However, I'm going to keep all that negative thoughts away for the moment and enjoy the movie.. (I hope)


BUT! They were right to be disappointed..

1. Michael Bay , if you happen to read this , Sam Witwicky or what his name is SO OVERATED! There's nothing wrong with Shia LaBeouf 'coz he's a brilliant actor , but his role in Sam is so overated.. I'm watching Transformers because of the obvious reason = Autobots vs Decepticons and the dramas about Sam and his girlfriend kinda annoys me a LOT! You should tone him a bit and PLEASE bring back Megan Fox..
2. Ironhide's DEAD?????? The hell???????????????????? It's like Jazz all over again! Bring back Ironhideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
3. Who is this Victoria Secret's model?? What's she doing here?? Somebody should revived Ironhide again coz I'm seriously gonna shoot that Barbie Doll myself.. Bring back Megan Fox and screw that Barbie Doll!
4. I WANT MORE AUTOBOTS vs DECEPTICONS and less human drama.. Thank you!

Okay.. so much of the anticipation.. This third installment is a downer.. With no Megan Fox , no more Ironhide , I'm not sure what to expect again in the future... Michael Bay, you're really let me down on this..

Youtube, I loathe you!

 It's a wonderful Friday morning.. While my superior is away today on leave until next Monday, so I decided to sit back in the office and commencing some "mengular" time.. My whole body was so pumped up with anime-adrenaline as I began to type "Chevalier D'eon" (one of my favourite anime).. Yesss! Finally I have some ME time..

That was until......



..... the hell???? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I hate this new youtube!!!!!!!! somebody shoot that muthafaka!!!! 

(I told you.. My language becoming more and more towards profanity since I got married.. I don't know why..?)

My Wedding Slideshow

 

 

Hope you guys enjoy it.. :-)

Saturday Morning Mission .. & Rant

It's a niiiiceeee Saturday morning.. and I'm here alone in the room with 1 mission in mind : Nancy Drew : Captive's Curse Download.. :-D 

Okay, I know all of you might say "Heyyy.. illegal download is wrong.. you should support the industry blablablabla.." Okay, for all of you wankers out there who proud yourself buying the original shit , I don't give a damn.. I am too , proud of myself for having the knack of searching the net for every single FREE software that I can get.. It takes time , I know.. But I'm not going to pay a single penny if there's a free software out there! So , SCREW YOU.. (Long Live Pirates!)

Avast ye! Arrrrrrr!!

Okay, I know I sound kinda like overly PMS lady right now , well , you can't blame me on that one because I was sooooooooooooooooooo furious that I can't watch the Transformers 3.. It's not like I can't as I don't have the time or money.. It's because it's not here yet in Bintulu!!! Nghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! I phone the cineplex the other day before, asking them when would the movie be out, and the lady assured me it will be the same day nationwide (which is 30th June).. So, I phoned again on 30th June and by golly the lady said the movie was not here yet! I asked again , when and that bloody cineplex just "tak tau" me! Major Nghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! 

But I'll visit cineplex again today and see if Transformers 3 is on show.. (keep my fingers cross)

I WON!!!!! Yabedabeduuuuuuuuu!!!

I'm back~!!! It's the 4th week after my marriage .. and the 4th day in the office.. Am puling myself together (obviously still in holiday mood and not much in a working spirit) to continue working.. Well , of course I have too..

So much of pulling , insisting myself to work extra hard this time , I got so distracted with the net.. While I was blog lurking (looking for ideas for my blog entry that still yet to be updated) I came across to Miss GincoMerahJambu's entry for the contest winner announcement.. I have to click on that one immediately because I have submitted mine and .. I saw my picture as the MissGincoMerahJambu's entry tumbnail.. OMG! Could it be................



Yeaaaaaaaaaaahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! I wonnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! Man, this is the first of so many entries that I won!! Yayyyyyyyy!!!

I would like to that Miss GincoMerahJambu for this cute and fun contest.. Awesomeness!! And also to my husband , Moushie who bought me that ice-cream.. I love u Baby.. hehehehhee..

Oh , I will share some of the beautiful moment during my big day that 4th & 5th of June.. so stay tune.. :-)

*shoot! I just got caught with my boss while I was typing this entry.. and now I have to promise him my blog address.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. not good..

My Solemnization - 3 hours and counting...

It's finally here... The day that I've been wondering myself what would I feel if I were counting the hours to get married.. With the bright heena on my fingers, I decided to write an entry today , to be reminder of how precious this today onwards will be for me.. 

Yup , can't deny the nervous energy surrounding myself at this hour.. Okay, lets face it, everybody get nervous at some point.. Nobody THAT confident in front of so many people watching your every move.. 

But.. whatever it is, I'm gonna stay strong and confident.. After all , it's the event of a life time and to be enjoyed.. Right? Right... :-)

My entire course of life will be changed starting from 1300 today... May ALLAH bless our marriage with happiness dunia and akhirat.. Friends , please pray for us.. :-)

Be afraid.. be VERY, very AFRAID..

I would like to give Frictional Game a round of applause for their invention - Amnesia : The Dark Descent.. Thank you for giving us gamers the experience to be scared : screamed like little sissy and possibly peed in our pants.. 

You've been warned...

*gambar culik from Amli Jiwa 
sorry bro.. aku x sempat click print screen.. :-D muehehhee.. nnt ko balik raya aku blanja mi kolok.. keh? keh?

Black Mirror III - Final Chapter finished! Yayyyy~

Finally I have finished the final installment of the Black Mirror series.. Although the end game was rather fair as oppose to great , I enjoyed it.. (I was expecting a sword fight with the evil Mordred , but what I got was only cut scene..) 

	Black Mirror I	Black Mirror II	Black Mirror III
Protagonist	- Samuel Gordon , who just lost his beloved uncle, William Gordon that was allegedly committed suicide (but Samuel was convince otherwise). He also has lost his wife in a fire also in Black Mirror Castle which made him hate it.	- Darren Michael from Biddeford, Maine. A physics student in his semester break who apparently hate his part time job due to his pain in the butt boss. He later found out that he’s a Gordon. Samuel’s son to be précised..	- Adrian Gordon , the last of the Gordon who inherited the Black Mirror Castle and a huge responsibility in getting rid of Mordred evil spirit in his body. He’s on the quest to destroy what remained of the curse and also Mordred.
Puzzles	Was fairly easy and enjoyable..	Quite hard and need some times to figure them out.. Some of them may need you to look for spoilers.	Somewhat in the middle.. However if you stuck at the puzzle, the game provide you with “skip” option where the game will solve it for you without having to stuck in the game trying to solve the puzzle.
Characters	Very flat dialog expression.	Surreal and impressively improving.. I love the sarcastic Darren.. and people with secrets.	Quite a hit and miss.. It’s a shame that some characters are not really well developed.. (I want to know more about Inspector & the café girl’s affair)
Graphic & Sound	All great and detailed.
Timed Puzzle & Death Scene	If I’m not mistaken there’s only 1 timed puzzle but plenty of unexpected death scene, where you go poking around places you shouldn’t do..	Lots of timed puzzles and chasing scene where you have to outsmart the bad people..	Fairly amount of both timed puzzles and chasing scene.
Ending	Somewhat frustrating ‘coz the protagonist decided to kill himself because of the curse..	Good ‘coz the element of keeping the player hanging for answer..	Somewhat expected but I wish there’s another ending like what will happen to the last Gordon after all this is over..
Ranking	3 1/2 out of 5	4 1/2 out of 5	4 out of 5

I'm looking forward for the next game from the Black Mirror developer..

I have new pair of eyes~ :-D

I am very proud of myself today because I did the unthinkable in my life.. Well, it may look like a small thing through anyone's eyes but for a newbie for me IT'S HUGE! 

I..... have succeed wearing my first ever CONTACT LENSES! hah! :-D after 5 hit and miss , that things finally stuck upon my iris.. I chose a subtle , natural brown color but with larger eyes effect.. I was rooting for grey however the preferable color is sold out.. :-( MAJOR BUMMER... 

I don't know if it's normal for the first time user but that "itchy" sensation (like dust gets inside your eyes kind of feeling) is irritating.. I keep on blinking my eyes with constant worries that my contacts were not in the right position.. But my sis & my bestie ensure me that it is normal and I may need some times to get it used to.. 

Well , as soon as I got home , I was sooooo anxious to remove the lenses.. They have been bugging me for quite some times already that made myself begging to rip them off from my eyes.. huhuhuuu..

Nevertheless , I was proud of today's achievement.. Well done Tey! (despite that 5-tries)

I feel grateful now I have everything I wanted..

I live my life with gratefulness.. with passion..

I am grateful that I got everything that I ever wanted..

I am at peace knowing I have everybody who loves me , and whom I love..

I feel beauty , I feel abundance and all the good things around me..

I am positive at every angle of my life..

I am the magnificent in my own form..

I am happy to be.... ME!

My Birthday/Wedding Gift Wish List.. :-D

I've been wanting these for a very long time.. I wish I have the money to buy them, if not all, one at a time..

For someone who knows me by heart would knew that I'm obsessed with Lord of The Rings.. This piece is the one that I'm dreaming of.. The most intricate and beautiful piece I've ever found on sale was the one sold by the New Zealand store (click here) I already send an enquiry email to the store , asking for payment method other than credit card (yes, I'm ashamed to admit that I have no credit card..)

My first encounter with this book was back in college.. I bought the first chapter but somehow miss the second one AND , now I lost my first book.. :-( huwaaaaaaaa.. how sad is that.. I only got the last chapter of the trilogy and I'm planning on purchasing the other two.. A very light read , fun narrative , both funny and captivating ;-)

I never had a fancy gadget before.. So I wanted at modesty , an iphone 3 someday..

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For those who want to buy me a present for my wedding/birthday , please take these in consideration.. huhuhuuuu..

Thing I regretted the most.. - A confession

I went on my usual blog lurking through me friend's page - Amli who's apparently always has a brilliant post.. (To be frank, I like him more than blog serious..) When I scrolled down the dashboard containing all Amli's latest posts, I stumbled upon one post entitled "50 people , 1 question" (read here) ,  I felt I had to click on that.. The video went on and I was stunned in front of my laptop with awe..
So there I was still in front of my laptop (even after the video is finished) pondering the same question.. "What is the thing in your life that you regretted the most".. Honestly speaking , there are A LOT of things I've regretted doing in the past.. But I have to say, if Dr. Emmett "Doc" of Back to The Future really is here , I wanted to go back to the times when I was still in the middle of college dilemma back in early 2002 and rushed to my own self and said that JMTI choice was a NO-NO..

I always regard my college days were nothing more than misery and discontentment.. I was misunderstood , isolated and shunned by most of the college populations.. Although it is painful for me to admit it , I was never the popular person in college , instead I was perceived as an awkward and often a victim of ignorant people.. It was hurtful when people ganged up on me because I was different..

I was brought up in school as a proactive student who tends to ask a lot of questions in class and enjoy engaging a conversation with my teachers.. To my surprise people in my college (especially the ladies) saw that as a bad thing , probably seems conceited.. I thought it was okay just to ignore them morons but when my own friend who knows me since highschool not only turned her back against me , she's also joined in the pack, agreeing whatever the morons have to say about me , even if they weren't true..

Getting tangled by so much misery , I got myself involved with unhealthy relationship with 1 guy.. Although my family has stressed out so many times , over and over again that the guy was a bad news I just wouldn't listen to them.. Probably I took comfort of knowing there will be someone who would stick by my through thick or thin , even if it was not entirely genuine .. Whatever it is , I THANK GOD that I was able to get myself out from the relationship without doing myself any harm..

I still carry the painful past of my time in college days till now.. Still not fully recovered.. I try to make peace with my past by staying connected with college friends in facebook (I know it's not a good idea , but I thought it's a perfect way to face the demon of my past..) but then... they still saw me as someone they perceived almost 9 years ago...........

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All I want back then was to be accepted ... :-(

Things that made me go from :-) to >:-(

Current "in-trend" that gets me from *∩_∩* to ---> ⊙ω⊙ the heck???

1. Someone who decide to buy a DSLR camera only to keep up with the trend NOT because he/she's into photography as in passion.. Okay , I know it's your money and all , but to flaunt it off when the only thing you know is to use the auto mode doesn't count you as a photographer , my friend.. And that thing - snapping your own picture while holding on the camera? Doesn't necessarily make you look cool..

2. The "doe" .. I don't know why there's a need in ending absolutely any sentence with a "doe" :

"panas gilee doe!" "henseemmmm doe~!" "Kete awek tu aku tuuuuu.. mahal doe~"

3. The "like" own status/post syndrome in facebook.. Hmm.. like.. seriously..?

4. Endless "see who looks your profile" application invites.. People , the reason I choose facebook more than friendster is that I don't want to be perceived as a "stalker" when I go poking around others profile.. (opsss.. busted..) 

5. The model-wannabe who post her/his pictures gesturing sexual pose (thinking she/he looks sexy) that makes you wonder is she/he doing modeling or looking for "playboy" endorsement..

6. Angry & Hate status.. It's okay to be expressive , but no one in the world would love that negative aura projected by so many "selective" language being used in a single sentence.. And using CAPS LOCK in the whole post? It makes you look like you're screaming the entire sentence like a hysterical sissy.. Chill out! 

7.  Overdosing on "F" word... Use sparingly , people.. I hate to break it , but even the white people doesn't perceived the "F" word as cool.. (hence the censoring in every bad words in tv)

Okay.. that's the end of my rant.. :-D

Sweet Tooth Alert

I'm in trouble.. 

I just visited my dentist for some teeth cleaning last Saturday and I came back to the office to find this on my desk.. 

 

Yea.. an Easter egg  my friend.. or to be precise , chocolate egg.. With 2 Easter rabbits.. huwaaaaa.. so adorable.. My boss , Dave got me when his wife came back from Scotland.. I feel really honored.. and happy! 

Thanks so much Dave.. You really are the sweetest boss I've ever seen.. :-) 

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Moushie took one of the rabbit ........ wuuuuuuuuwuuuuuu.. While mine would be seated in a cabinet for a while... Man.. I don't have the heart to eat such adorable gift such as this!

My Superhero - Sailormoon

I'm sure y'all remember that scene pretty much , rite? And I'm absolutely sure that all girls are grown up with this anime.. I mean , I do.. *∩_∩*

Back when I was still in primary school , (standard 5, 1995) I was addicted to comics and that was the first time I knew SAILORMOON.. I remember when I got my hands on the first volume of the series , I was so thrilled and said to myself this gonna be my favourite comic ever.. (after Dragon Ball and Shin Chan) My thrill to Sailormoon lead me to more severe obsession : comics (even in chinese.. and I don't read chinese..) merchandises.. and even my friends and I have our own Sailor team.. :-D 

Well ,those were the days.. Now my fellow senshi are all grown up now.. Most of them have evolved to "maternity" level.. :-D My Sailorvenus even had 3 beautiful daughters.. So did Mercury and Mars.. The only senshi left are Jupiter and... ironically , Sailormoon herself.. (well , considering she's the first one to get hitched by Mamoru.. :-D) But.. Sailormoon will join in the club this June , which then left Jupiter alone... :-( Aw.... But, I would not worry much about my Jupiter.. She'll be alright.. :-) 

Ya.. I know you probably wondering the heck I'm babbling about.. Actually , while I was cleaning my room today, I happen to find my old posters of Sailormoon and the sweet memories of my childhood came visiting me for a while.. I sat there in my room thinking.. how fast it is for me to grow up... It felt like yesterday when I got back home with more Sailormoon merchandises to brag to my fellow Senshi.. Hehehhee.. (I always did a Sailormoon goodies hunting and show them to the fellow friends - thought they might get jealous of it.. hehehehehe) 

Now that I'm 27.. (I'm not ashamed to admit it guys..) everything's got tougher and tougher.. But, when things beyond my control , I put on my "Sailormoon" alterego and imagining myself seizing all life obstacles with my Sailormoon powers..  A little childish , I know but everybody needs a superhero in them to help save the day.. :-) 

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Now that my mom already "taken care" of my Sailormoon comics , I planned on getting them online.. Huhuhuu.. Probably called the ComicHouse and see if they still do the old school order..

Ice-Cream ga Daisukiiiiiii~

Ice-creams??? I looooooooooveeee Ice-Creams!!!!! ≧▽≦

I love ice creams for 3 reasons :

1) Ice-creams are delicious

2) Ice-creams make me feel good..

3) Ice creams are delicious and make me feel good..

For me ice-cream has this placebo effect that instantly lift up my spirit whenever things go wrong.. So , yeah.. you can say that it's kinda like an anti depression without the drugs..

To pay tribute to my love over this cold-creamy beast.. I decided to enroll myself in this contest : 

SAYA SUKA ICE-CREAM

(click to the banner to find out more)

So.. here you go.. my best pic (I think.. :-D ) in my best moment eating an ice-cream..

And for this contest I would like to tag 2 more ice-cream lovers : 

Miss Una

Miss Meera

Burppp..~ Alhamdulillah.. Fuhhh.. that was good..

Now lets sing this song together..! *∩_∩*

*GASP*

Oh , sorry.. double post.. I just can't resist!.. 

While I was scrolling down my post just now , I saw my wedding countdown.... 

My wedding dress.. my room.. the canopy haven't been settled yet...!! 

Gyaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

My typical Saturday..

A couple of days ago I was in a cd store in town browsing through bunch of pc game dvds.. Well, actually I was bored and the only place that could satisfy my dull moment that time would be the content of that store.. And then my eyes met a plastic cover with a title : THE SIMS MEDIEVAL.. I immediately picked it up to have a quick read of the game description.. Then I take a glance at the price tag.. RM20.. okay, not bad.. But, when I opened my purse to check my money , I what's left in my purse.. RM5.00... yeahhhh... that's a MAJOR bummer.. 

Then I place the dvd back and walk out of the store... Not because I'm depressed or disappointed in not enough money condition or anything like that.. but because I'm afraid the urge of getting this dvd overwhelmed me which then might cause me to rush to the nearest ATM and risking myself for more deficit account.. Not gonna happen.. especially when my wedding is neaaarllllyyyyyy there (which take about less than a month now) .. Besides, I have a more efficient way in getting this game without paying a cent.. sort of.. 

Now with downloading part 2 still ongoing , I'm going to sloth myself with a hindi flick (shocker , I know) "Nayak".. Before you're going Eeeee-jiwangnyeee-tgk-hindiiiiiiiii on me, lemme tell you that this one really worth watching.. I love how the movie challenge the typical hindi flicks and insert a brilliant current issues in it .. Moreover , I just can't pass that exaggerating matrix-like fighting scene a hindi/tamil movies tends to offer.. :-D 

Now, lets put aside of that "x main aaaaaa cite hindi" and go watch this one..  trust me.. it's a good one..

A Wonderful Surprise..

Just received an early wedding gift from my beloved friends & colleagues (Jean.. Sarinah & Harriet) in PTA office... I'm tottaly lost for words.. TOTALLY..

The only thing I can say right this moment is..............................

YATTA!!!!!!!

Persuasive-Intolerable Companion..

Guys.. I need help....

I have a friend , who work at the same company as I am.. She's quite sweet and good manner.. She's friendly and always there to help.. Sounds good for a friend , you'd say?

Well.. not exactly when she's being so persuasive , or should I say VERY insistent and does not take no for an answer.. It's okay for a couple of times , but when she keeps pushing me to agree in everything she wants then she does gets on my nerve.. 

Like a few days back, she keeps on insisting on going to aerobic.. What makes me ANNOYED was when the thought of being a "personal driver" occurs to mind.. I mean why wait for me?? If you really feels the need to go to aerobic, then just go.. I have tried explaining to her so many times that I can't afford myself to join her since my incomes are so tight this months , but she just won't hear of it.. Instead she just said "pleaseeeeeeee.. I really want to go.. lemme pay for you"..I can't help but feel trapped by her constant begging to take her.. UUrghhhhhh!! so, I just say "okay......" 

It's not the first time I have to oblige to her commands.. If I hadn't keep my status as "busy" in IM , I might as well got "robbed" from my work just to accompany her to the cafe... And lemme tell you.. I don't enjoy her company when we were surrounded by guys... She will do the "control ayu" stuffs.. suddenly talking in soft tone and all.. Like watehel la kan? Just being yourself for heaven sake.. No need to go all "ayu" for the sake of being notice... 

And... I have shared a story of someone I dear in my past time (well, certainly already a history..) and even showed her that person facebook.. Oddly enough she add as a friend and getting sooooo anxious for that person to accept.. So boys and girls , what do you make of it when someone openly have an interest/flirting with someone who have a history with you? Not so convincing as a friend right , considering she does not respect you by going that far... 

There you go... My absolutely pain in the neck sorta problems that needs to go away like PRONTO.. I hope I can decline to her wishes without going nukes for her intolerable insistent.. Friends... please help.. ≧o≦

My dream Prince getting married.. *sob..sob..*

*scream in the room* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! My beloved Prince will be getting married next week!! ≧o≦ 

"What's your fascination with this Prince btw? If you REALLY take a good look and compare myself to him, I am wayyyy handsome than he is"..

That's what my Boss told me when I made a  (╯3╰ ) face telling him how every women would be crushed (well, including me of, course) when the Prince Charming of Wales is officially pronounced as someone else' husband.. Urghhh! I can't imagine the pain.. It feels like when you have a crush with someone and then only to know that he's getting married due time..  

Wait! Hold the phone there missy.. You're going to get married too in less than couple of months now.. So, yeah, no loss there.. :-D

** But I will definitely get teary when I actually saw this ceremony**

I remember when I was still in high school I have practically every pictures of Prince William glued to my books (and also my school text books.. ° ▽° ) , my pencil case, and also not to mention on the bedroom wall.. :-D I have a poster of him right next to my bed.. My friends and I even argued of who was actually deserved to be his "Royal Queen".. (Hah! like we all THAT deserving) 

The reason why I have developed a keen towards this Prince of Wales simply because of my childhood fantasy.. You girls gotta agree with me that you too have dream of becoming the real life Cinderella don't you? We all grew up with the aspiration of marrying a prince when we got older.. But of course, we will meet our own prince charming in real life.. Myself included.. And I'm glad that I was blessed with this "gift".. a perfect prince for me.. *∩_∩*

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Okay.. enough about the princey story.. tomorrow will be a Good Friday holiday but, I'm going to escape the pleasure of sitting infront of my lappy watching Gaki no Tsukai - Spy Batsu and slavering myself for another OT.. Well, a girl gotta do what a girl's gotta do.. I need an extra income for my wedding preparation.. I'm not gonna lie but I'm in a tight economic situation at the moment.. Now I know how much stressful a wedding preparation could be.. I'm kinda envious with Ms Kate Middleton now that she's got zero thing to worry about 'coz everything is set up by the wedding planner and I'm sure it comes from the prince's pocket money.. No bad pun intended.. I adore Kate so much.. I'm just resent someone who don't have to struggle so much to get what they want.. ≧3≦

Whatever .. I'm going to just do my best to realize my dream wedding... aja-aja FIGHTING! 

.... somehow I'm feeling uplifted with this cute song.. hontto ni kawaiiiiiiiiii!! ≧▽≦ (shout out to Amli-Jiwa-Otaku)

  ** waving a leak** Aba rippadta parip parii ba ribi, ribi, ribi

Raise from debris of chaos...

I'm feeling somewhat liberated now that I have found inspiration for my current obstacles.. I shall rise again!

Cinderella in Reality..

Things has not been fairly good these few days.. I don't know , but it seems that my life has suddenly turned into unexpected soap opera.. Like one you watched on tv nowadays when the protagonist is into neverending misery , one after another.. (Yup , you know what I meant when you watch that crappy sinetron : Intan or that Kejora dan Bintang.. Urgh! *rolled eyes* ) 

I once watch this movie called "Ever After" starring Drew Berrymore and it's the take of "Cinderella" story but with realistic touch to it (no magic pumpkins or Fairy God Mother).. (watch the whole videos : here) I can't help but to feel somewhat connected to the movie since I experienced a comparatively similar state of affairs.. 

I feel betrayed by people surrounding me.. They keeping secrets and do things on their own which regards to my life and never seems to care about my sentiment.. I mean, if you watched Ever After and you saw that scene when the stepmom viciously squandered what's left of Cinderella's father only for the sake of her own and her awkward daughters - that's what my life looks like.. I don't wanna go into details but .... that's what I feel like... 

I miss Abah... I miss the feeling of knowing someone would always be there for me , to protect me against something that would ended up making my life miserable... And now that he's gone I'm completely on my own.. helpless against this squanderers who took comfort in knowing that I'm incapable of doing anything but watch in dejection......

Despaired for my misfortune has gained a friend in my fear for my upcoming wedding.... I hate to think that it will be one disastrous event , rather than a happy and blissful moment.. I know it has a loop hole somewhere for this perpetrator to leave a huge mess in my Big Day... I can't no longer be optimistic after what has happen to me recently...I just...... can't..

My apprehension has threatened to overwhelmed me... but , am trying my very best to keep that "darkness" at bay... I'm keeping my hopes and faiths and I know GOD listen to me ever single day...  Rest assured that this will end , eventually....... I hope...

Miss this song.... used to love it when I was a child..  
(turn off the video widget at the right column)

Ganbatte Kudasai!!!

Time                           : 12:37 AM

Mood                           : Sluggish + Sleepy..

Activity                       : Downloading Gaki no Tsukai - Spy Batsu..

Goal                            : Download complete 90% (which left me to download subs later)

Probability                   : 5 out of 10.. 

Consequences of Action : Drooling in front of office computer all day..

Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! Where's Micah Sanders when you needed him???